What is this feeling? Why am I so afraid of the outside world? Why am I afraid to go out? Why am I afraid to challenge myself?
I know, I need to do this. I need to go out. I need to be able to know that I can do it.
But what can I do?
Can I do it?
Will I be able to do it?
...No. It was the matter of whether I want to do it or not.
Dear Allah.
Dear Allah.
What should I do?
What do I want to do?
I want to go out. I want to be allowed to go out. I...
...I don't feel free.
Dear Allah.
Please, help me.
Help me take that leap. Just one small leap.
Please dear Allah. I...I want to practice going out, and survive on my own.