Breakup.

Bismillah.

If everyone likes you and finds you reliable, you'd think that's a good thing, right?

...

What if, as a consequence, everyone goes to you whenever they need help, until you feel torn apart and exhausted from having to give attention to all of them?

...I think I'm an ambivert. I would be nice to strangers on a good day, until that stranger no longer feel awkward with me. But at the same time, my energy drains every time I talk and smile.

How do I fix this?

How do I take a break, when everyone's depending on me?

Why are you so scared to take a break? Because you're scared you will burden our colleagues for having to take over your job?

But if you send your resignation letter now, you'll still stay until project completion. Should be no problem there, right?

Or is it because you are scared you'll be alone once you quit work? That all those people that you've help, would no longer have opportunity to reciprocate? That you wouldn't have your return of investment?

Why are you expecting something back?

No, I'm not.

I'm scared of being alone.

That mean's I'm putting work as my main identity.

I'm depending on work to give me life meaning.

That...I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing.

Meaning, you are actually depending on something. You're not fully independent.

You gotta take back your identity.

Your freedom.

You are not your work.

You can survive any other places.

You have always been flexible. Just see how you are nice to everyone, without prejudice.

You can survive.

It's okay if you end up being a cleaner.

As long as you stay happy with yourself.

It's okay if you lose all those people from work who like to hang around with you.

That means they only hang around you because they get something from you.

Once you stop giving it to them, they stop being nice to you. 🤷

You gotta cut your losses.

Please...be nice to your own self.

What if you see your best friend suffering like you right now? What kind of advice would you give her?

I would say... take a break.

Stop thinking if your break would cause trouble to the project or the people.

You need it.

You yourself might break if you don't take this break.

You are breaking.

That's why you're reaching out like this.

If you can take it, you'd never raise this issue.

It is an issue, that's why it's appearing.

Like an illness or a disease. If you're healthy, nothing is an issue. But once you're sick, symptoms pop up. And when symptoms pop up, that's when you need to take medicine.

Even if the medicine is bitter.

Even if...quitting your job is bitter.

It's almost like breaking up from a relationship.

Admittedly, I like what I'm doing.

I'm involved with building SQL logic.

And I like the colleagues. They are nice people.

Bosses as well, they are all good people.

Yes, it's like breaking up.

You're sad that you have to end this.

Imagine those scenes in romance movies saying, "I love you, but we can't continue like this," while crying.

Yes, it feels like that.

Why can't we continue, you asked?

It's because I feel like I'm giving too much.

You might say you can change.

But for now, I just need a break.

To re-evaluate my life back.

I'm sorry.

But I need it.

I need it.

Dear God...

Hah...

Please...help me.

It will be a tearful breakup.

I will need to recognize and acknowledge that.

It's okay.

It does hurt.

You will cry.

But it's okay.

It will be okay.

At least you'll only cry once during the breakup.

Instead of crying yourself to sleep every night and in the morning before work.

 

It's okay.

It shows how passionate you are working there.

It shows how invested you are.

Which is not a bad thing.

It's okay, cry. It is a sad breakup.

It is sad.

Your heart will hurt, during the breakup process.

But only that time.

Your heart will stop hurting from the daily work itself.

Tired...of cooking.

Bismillah.

God...I want a break.

From life.

This recent Raya season was sooo hectic.

At least for me.

I guess because I was feeling responsible.

Like a mother feeling responsible for all the celebration going on in the house.

Well, not all.

Because my mother is already old, and not that well, so I feel like I have to rile up my siblings to help out with house chores.

And all the cooking...phew 😮‍💨

5th of April I was working, and they all went for iftar at the masjid so I didn't cook and ate whatever they brought back from there.

But 6th Apr the sahur morning, I woke up to cook sup sawi even though I was not fasting.

Then 6th April iftar, I cooked sup Thai and my sister cooked tempe goreng with sambal penyet.

That nigh we went around bazar, shopped for some fireworks and my brother's raya clothes.

7th April sahur, apparently they didn't have enough leftover rice to eat because my youngest brother ate them during midnight 😑

Went to Sunday morning market with mom.

7th April iftar, my mom cooked kengsom. My brother complained about eating weird menus 😑 Also, I cleaned the paru my mom bought at pasar pagi, cut my finger with the butcher knife 😖 damn hurt I didn't dare to open the bandage for 2 whole days!

8th April iftar, my mom cooked paru and requested me to cook kabsah rice, since she had the kabsah spice mix she bought from a while ago. At the same time, masjid was inviting people to come iftar there, they were having kabsah rice too, sponsored by some restaurant or catering or something. I had to compete apparently 😂 Even though I've never cooked kabsah before, and near iftar time the rice was almost not fully cooked, but at the end, all was well and no complaints 😌... Mom used a roundabout way to compliment me (while at the same time criticizing me, typical), saying why you're good at cooking but lazy to cook back in KL?

And, again, that older brother of mine, always had things to pick on, said he wanted to eat something he's familiar with. Bro just went blind, ignoring all my sweats and tears cooking for hours in the kitchen 🙄

9th April sahur my mom finally made singgang because that brother requested, and I woke up to cook some veggies, then went back to sleep without eating lol

9th April iftar I cooked mee lidi goreng basah, which that brother of mine complained again (!) saying why is it not the dry version. Like bro, cook yourself la! 😡 Also, I stubbed my big toe while cleaning up the house and moving furniture, it hurt like hell and was bleeding, yet no one knows because I DIDN'T TELL!

And people dare complain so much!!! GRRRRR

Then 10th April, 1st day of Raya we cooked nasi lemak, I got the sambal bilis and sambal sotong ready. My sister dared leaving the nasi uncooked and went to the mosque, like, hey! You left your responsibility to us, when we wanted to go to the mosque too!!! GRRRRR 😡

But, my sambal was so good that my brothers' wives loved it.

11th April 2nd day raya, my mom made laksa. I got so tired of cooking by now, I didn't cook anything except helping mom with cutting veggies and boiling eggs. Balik kampung balik hari, then masak nasi a bit when arrived back home, these people tumpang2 my nasi (like they don't know how to cook it on their own 🙄)

12th April 3rd day Raya, we got guests coming, stopping by our house before entering the highway back to KL. Didn't really cooked, just prepared some nasi himpit, kuah kacang, sate, serunding for them to eat.

13th April, another guest from Pekan came, ManDak. I made mee hoon sup.

14th April, another guest from Pekan, Kamil AcuDin. We made mee curry. Well, my mom made the curry, we prepared whatever else needed.

15th April. Woi, harini aku dah balik KL. Penat gila full week asyik masak aje. Naik fedup pun ada. Nasib baik sebelum balik, adik aku buat kerapu sweet sour. Tu pun aku yang goreng dulu kerapu nya.

Haaa

Nasib semua sedap

Banyak resepi refer Che Nom punya Youtube aje.

Thanks Che Nom <3

a lot going on

Bismillah.

I have a lot going on recently.

Suddenly. 

Hah. My life has been slow since last year I guess there's a need to stir it up a bit.

There's a saying: if you don't want to move/change, then life's gonna push you to, whether you like it or not.

One of the big ones: My brother's getting married. Well, two of them.

Which makes me think: what about me?

Hah. 'I'm being left behind' is my first thought. My family's won't be there anymore. They've gotten their own now.

I'm starting to feel more...lonely I guess. Haha I'm starting to think, how much lonelier can I get?

Two: We're moving to a new house.

Not just me, it's my family. We're moving to a bigger house since our family is expanding anyway.

Which means...a lot of cleaning and packing up stuff...spending money to buy new furniture...

Got me thinking: When am I gonna buy my own house?

Three: Weddings.

Well, who else? My brothers of course. I'm not the one who needs to plan anything, but there are some things that need to be discussed across our extended family members. Like who's going to the event, how many cars, where are we gonna stay, should we where clothes of the same color etc. etc....

It's not heavy, but just a bit awkward. Since it's 'extended' family so you don't really talk to them very often (meaning: rarely). 

And there's a lot of nuances you need to know, like, what's appropriate to say so that you wouldn't unintentionally hurt their feelings.

That't what making me anxious. It's like trying to cooperate with strangers, but you need to be more careful. Because if it's just strangers then they have nothing to do with you and you won't be meeting them afterwards, but since it's your distant relatives...well, they're your father's or you mother's family and you would be meeting them during gatherings and stuff. You can't avoid it.

I just...I guess I'm just uncomfortable. I'm just worried that their impression on me is bad, because I'm working in KL and I haven't been socializing with them that much, and I have been quiet...

sigh

I guess it's just me then.

Four: Weekend classes

I signed up for some classes on weekend, just to fill in my boring, uneventful life. Hah, now you'd think I regret it huh?

Nah, not really. Tiring, yes, but I don't regret it. Those classes help actually. Now I feel like I do have something, instead of feeling uselessly and endlessly going on a rat race working in a corporate world.

Just that I'm impatient I guess. Impatient to proceed to the next level, impatient to be good at it, impatient to succeed.

Dude, sabar boleh tak? Haha.

Five: I'm going to Japan!

...Not that exciting I guess, since we're in planning stage, and I don't enjoy planning.

And, it doesn't help that I have never been overseas before. Unless you count Singapore as one. Lol.

I got no experience, so I'm doubtful about everything. Haha, I still remember when I wanted to book a flight to Singapore for a business trip, that was my first time ever. I froze for more than 1 hour in front of the computer, scared of making any mistakes. I mean, the price on the ticket itself is already scary since I'm booking for a business trip and there's no promotion going on at that time. My boss had to reach out to one of my colleague to come to my desk and help me with it.

And finally, six: Work.

Hah, when has it ever be not busy with work?

...I guess the previous (no-boss) weeks have been slow. Well, no boss, what's you expect haha. Now that the bosses are back...

Not really. It's just that there's some complications and I need to help out on ironing that issue out.

What's tiring is that the issue is urgent, and it's involving me writing up walls of codes.

Just last week I spent the whole week (like 6 working days straight) just writing up codes to estimate some data. Needless to say, now I've lost meaning of them since I've been staring at them for too long. (Haven't even mentioned how the boss got so picky about me making one mistake and pointed it out during a meeting with everyone else. Thanks for ruining my self-confidence, boss.)

Which is crazy, because now they want me to write up another wall of codes to solve a slightly different issue. Which I don't quite get it; you got so angry with me making mistakes in my codes, then why are you giving me another coding task?

I know why. Because we ain't got not enough people in the office.

In AMS there are 3 people, now 1 of them, the one who knows most about our products and the one that I suppose would be doing the estimation coding task, except that now she goes on a 2-week holiday.

While in KL there are, like, 8 people. 1 of them is on 2-months sabbatical but she's actually leaving the company, so there'll be 7 of us. 4 of them are full-time working on specific projects that only they know how to do it, 1 of them is on a business trip, and 1 of them is a new-joiner. Who's left? Me. I have to take over half of the tasks that the 4 project people used to do before they got so busy, and...! I also have to teach the new joiner on tasks that she needs to do.

...Huh. We've been having this problem ever since 3 years ago, still unsolved. It's like a curse, where our office will never have more than 10 people in it. Yes, we do put up job ads but hiring has been REALLY slow while average employee retention is like 2 years. In 3 years, our office which started with 6 people, there have been 9 new hiring, but also, 8 people leaving. So now we end up with just 1 people more than what we have when we first started.

Funny isn't it.

I'm not jumping ships yet, I admit, I'm starting to feel comfortable with the benefits that my company is offering. But then...the prospect of being overwhelmed with work might scare me in the future.

Changing jobs is tough and mendokusai, so I ain't looking forward to doing it anytime soon.

#Fate

Random Rambling

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

Lama dah aku tak post something kat sini. Hah. Rasa macam dah tak penting je lagi blog ni.

Why? Dalam hidup aku dah tak ada cerita nak dicoretkan ke?

Well, not really. Cuma, aku tak tau nak tulis apa. Aku tak tau nak cakap apa.

You see, makin lama aku tak jenguk blog ni, sepatutnya aku semakin rindu + tak sabar-sabar nak tulis dalam ni.

But now, it seems that I’ve lost the spirit.

Why, you ask?

I don’t know myself. But maybe this blog is beginning to get more and more dull. Well, speaking of which, there IS nothing interesting in here.

Exactly. That’s my point.

At one time of your life, you will feel like you are insignificant enough. You aren’t needed enough. I mean, of course your parents and your close friends would feel like you’re important to them and all, but that just it. Nothing more, nothing less. They will still, and will stay, forever you parents and friends, and just that.

Well, I don’t know. Maybe this is good for me, maybe this is what I want. Or maybe not.

Then what do you do? How do you solve this insignificant feeling you have?

Go and find someone to acknowledge the importance of your existence?

 

Finding someone who admire you like you’re the only one in their life?

Oh.

Sounds like love to me.

***

So are you ready?

Accepting another to really be a part of you life?

But that’s it. When you come to think of it, that’s the real problem, the root problem of why marriage wouldn’t succeed. You see, when you, kind of, ‘accept’ someone into your life, you would’ve been happy because you think that your life is going to be on bed of roses for eternity. But always, always remember. Every good thing comes with a price.

Remember. Your other half, is also a human being. Thus, he/she would’ve need to live his/her own life, not forgetting to mention, having desires that may’ve been totally opposite of what we want. This, could be a reason behind a marital fight.

Second point is the thing that I’ve always been afraid of. I want to run away from it in so many instances now, but I barely manage to escape, not even once. It seems that I’ve failed to avoid or or even say ‘no’ to it. That is, responsibility. Now, now. This is one tough, tricky chick. Having accepted it may’ve bring benefits and advantages to you, but now that you have it, you’ll also have to take care of it.

Having another person entering your life, doesn’t that mean he/she is also under your responsibility now? Now that you need to take care not to hurt his/her feelings, remember what they like and dislike, be good with their families and friends and all…etc. etc. Ahh…there. Your responsibility has just piled up to a hill when you marry.

Now there’s one person, a friend of mine told me that people in love would never feel heavy to do something for their loved ones. Well, I guess that’s true. When you love someone you wouldn’t feel difficult at all trying to put up with him/her. You would even die for him/her. Tanggungjawab cinta, just like what my friend said. And I said, I don’t understand.

 

I …don’t understand.

***

Well then, I guess you wouldn’t be married if you’re not ready to accept those responsibilities yet. You shouldn’t be. Once you are truly prepared, however, that’s when love suddenly comes knocking you heart’s door.

Objection!

P/S: Pictures, credits to Nintendo DS Phoenix Wright series

Again, assistant.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.


Dulu kat sekolah, aku pernah jadi penolong ketua bilik. Ntah ape-ape je aku rasa. Dah la time tu aku belum matured lagi.


Pastu, diorang lantik aku jadi timbalan ketua batch bahagian wanita pulak. Nasib baik kitorang memang dah ada Timbalan Ketua Umum yang merupakan timbalan pengawas dan timbalan ketua semua pelajar kat KISAS dulu. Memang tak ada kerja langsung ah. Jawatan setakat nama je.


Lepas tu, CFS. Dah takde timbalan, penolong. Vice terus. Vice President 2 FRC. This is where and when the real tugasan of a timbalan starts. And yeah, I freaked out when I discovered that. But well, alhamdulillah, I’ve gone through that, and I’m still alive.


And now, again, Assistant Batch Leader.

Assistant lagi. Agaknye bile aku boleh pegang Leader terus?

Haha takde lah. Aku gurau jek. Takpelah. Assistant pun assistant lah ek. Mula-mula assistant batch leader CTS 101. Lepas ni Vice President Sciencess. Lepas tu Vice President SRC. Lepas tu Deputy Dean. Lepas tu Deputy Rector. Lepas tu Timbalan Menteri. Lepas tu….(haa pandai-pandai la korang sambung sendiri)

Takde, takde, serius aku memain je. Aku tak mintak pun semua tu, serius aku tak mintak. Diorang yang vote. Mana aku tau?

Hurm. Aku tau, ada hikmahnya Tuhan bagi aku jawatan ni. Walaupun aku rasa taknak. Dan susah.

Aduh, keje ape yang tak susah dalam dunia ni? Nak tido pun susah tau!

Aduiyai. Yelah-yelah. Buat sempoi je sudah ek.

Eh, tak boleh. Amanah tu. Ko jangan buat main-main.

Aduh. Inilah yang asyik mengganggu aku bila tiba je bab jawatan ni. Just this one thing.


Amanah.

Amanah mana boleh buat main-main la korang. Dah la amanah untuk jaga seramai 70+ makhluk kat dalam batch CTS101 ni. Kalau kau dapat sesuatu amanah tu, bermakna sebelah kaki kau dah berada dalam neraka, tau tak?

Oh well. Takpe, takpe. Ama kata kerjanye takdelah sebanyak time aku jadi VP FRC dulu. Mungkin aku boleh lakukannya.

Oh hell yeah I can do it! Siapa kata aku tak boleh?

Yelah, yelah. Aku boleh. Tuhan  yang bagi aku jawatan ni. Mestilah sebab aku boleh buat, kan?

Aduh.

Apa yang kau rasa susah sangat keje Assistant ni sebenarnya?

Hmmm…ntahlah.

Well, actually, to say “No.” to someone is not an easy job, especially when you are dealing with your own friends.

Heh. Sebab tu lah aku sekarang dah makin garang, nakal dan jahat. Supaya aku boleh memerintah dengan kuasa veto dan menjadi diktator paling kejam di abad ini. Barulah korang berhenti undi aku, bahkan korang dah tobat tanak jumpa muka aku dalam batch lagi! Hahahahaha!

Haha. Ok, serius menakutkan. But yet, aku bagi amaran kat korang, watch out! Hehe.

Hurm, takdelah. InsyaAllah I’ll try to do what I can. But I also need some help from you.

First.

Please know that I am me, and you can’t expect me to be someone else. Accept me for who I am, and don’t hate me for someone I can’t be.

Second.

Humans have weaknesses. So I have weaknesses. If you don’t accept my weaknesses, then that means you don’t accept me being human. Therefore, congratulation because you’ve just voted an alien to be you Assistant Batch Leader! Heh.

Just accept it sometimes I do make mistakes. And yes, korang boleh bagitau apa yang sebetulnya patut dilakukan kalau aku ada buat salah. But do it in a nice way please. Because I’m a human. I’m certainly not an alien.

Third.

Do know that I can’t fulfill everyone’s wish. Aku tak boleh penuhi permintaan semua orang. And all of you gotta know that, bukan semua permintaan korang dapat aku penuhi. Mungkin aku akan menolak beberapa permintaan korang, yes, that will happen. Mungkin korang akan sesekali tidak bersetuju dengan apa yang dah ditetapkan. And yes, please do know one thing.

 Diarahkan kamu untuk berperang. Boleh jadi sesuatu yang kamu benci itu sangat baik bagi kamu (sementara) yang kamu sukai mungkin tidak baik bagi kamu. Dan Allah mengetahui tetapi kamu tidak mengetahui. (2:216)

That’s all. Hmm. I think those three are going to be enough. For now.

Hmm.

Huhuuu…ntahlah. People’s expectations. That thing REALLY freaks me out.

God, help me.

Kene 'angkat'

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

Malam 6.12.09. Malam bersejarah. (bersejarah la amat~)
Seorang S/U sedang menyiapkan kerja2nya di hadapan laptop yang dipinjam drpd Yantie.
Bnyak jugak keje dia malam tuh. Action plan, list committee, jobskop, surat mntak sponsor etc...
Tapi S/U tu suke la jugak...bukan ape,dah ada laptop,so suka la nak buat keje nye...
Ditambah pula dgn pendrive kembar baru yang ditempah khas dari PC Fair
bertambah semangat lagi nak buat keje
Dan si S/U berazam utk tidak tido lgsung pd malam itu...
Alhamdulillah...berjaya juga disiapkan sedikit...wlupun dlam menyiapkan keje tu ade juga si S/U menyelinap di facebook, blog, ning dan ym~
Si S/U melihat jam tangan Adidas RM10 nya.Hmm..dah nak dekat pukul 7 pagi. Nak tido skrg? Fikirnya.
Oh tidak, gi mandi dulu. S/U lntas mngambil towel dan baldi,lntas mnuju ke bilik air dgn hati yg gembira..
(awal sungguh mandi)

Setelah siap mndi segar bugar, si S/U mnyambung lagi tugasnye di hdpn lptop.Bukan ape,bkn senang nak ade lptop depan mata ni!Lantas digunakan peluang trsebut sebaik mngkin...mnyambung lagi kerja2 yang blum siap. Invitation letter utk setiap head dept blum dibuat lgi.Hmm..takde idea nak buat ayat...sambil2 tu kelihatan kepala S/U trsengguk2 di hdpn lptop..trsengguk,trsedar balik,trsengguk balik...lntas si S/u buat air Nestum utk mnhilangkan mngtuk..boleh la dia smbung buat assigment Math skit...

Pergi kelas Chem pkl 10, disusuli dgn Chem Lab yang haru biru. Si S/U dan rakan baiknya suka duduk di meja blakangggggg skali dalam lab.Dua meja depan dipenuhi oleh sisters, dua meja blakang sisters trsebut dipenuhi oleh brothers, dan blakang skali, si S/U duduk cuma berdua dgn rakannya. Bukan ape,dah penuh meja depan tu.Chem Lab yg memenatkan kerana S/U trpaksa mngulang beribu kali(hiperbola) kerana telah mlakukan bnyak kesilapan. S/U dan rakannya sedikit trtekan, ditmbah pula dgn rasa mcm nak lari drpd mdm yg agak garang,dgn brothers yg mmbntu+mnggnggu experiment mereka berdua di belakang.Setelah hbis kelas  Chem Lab dgn percentage error yg lebih 300%,mereka berdua pg makan di U Cafe,kmudianny pegi masuk office untuk keje shift petang...(LTD namanya)

Duduk di office, si S/U brtnya tntang group discussion pd mlmnya.Ingatkan skjap je, kmudian Administrative Officer pggil bg keje sket (btul ke jwtn ni?). Takpe,nama pun berkerja,mstila kene buat kan?Si rakan baik S/U pula disuruh oleh Asst. Religious Officer utk ajar anaknya Matematik. Guna komputer di ofis jap sbb kawan sepejabat si S/U nk tgok list nama org bwhan. Sehingga la nak dekat pukul 4,prgi ke CC utk print out action plan yg diminta oleh department lain.Si S/U lntas dikejutkan oleh jgkitan virus ke data2 pentingnya. Pnjaga CC tu mmberi nasihat kpd S/U agr klu nak bukak lgi file2 dlm ni kat laptop ke, kene off antivirus agar file2 tu tak hilang.Argh, getus hati S/U.Die tringatkan file2nya yg baru shaja disiapkan malam dan pagi tadi.Dia mula risau adakah file2 itu bkal mninggalkannya?Tapi kerisauan itu hnya dilindunginya sja.

Petang itu rakan sepejabatnye menawarkan pdnya agar dia mmbawa pulang pndrive S/U untuk di scan di laptopnya.S/U lntas ikutkan saja, wlupn dlm hatinya sudah pasrah akan kehilangan file2 itu. Fikirannya difokuskan utk mnmgatur event discussion pd malam itu. Pada malamnya, dengan kepala yg agak tepu dan cuaca sejuk selepas hujan, S/U turun padang. Setelah mnyelesaikan beberapa masalah yg timbul, pendrive nya itu dipulangkan dan rakan sepejabatnya mngajak masuk ofis sbb ada keje nak buat. S/U mngikut saja,lgipun data yg diperlukan oleh rakannya itu ada dalam pndrivenya. Setibanya di ofis, rakannya lntas mmbuka pndrivenya di komputer di ofis terbabit,tetapi tidak lama kemudian die dpggil oleh Officer utk sesi Sharing Moment.Maka tinggallah si S/U untuk mnyambung perjuangan rakannya di depan komputer.

Mata S/U terasa agak pedih kerana masih tidak dpt rehat drpd pncaran UV,InfraRed dan ozone komputer trsebut,Mungkin matanya nnti akan bermutasi mnjadi mata X-Men yg boleh laser tuh.Tapi tidak mngapa,pndrive kesayangan sudah di dpn mata, S/U lntas mngexplore data yg ada dlm pndrivenya.Kelihatan seperti file2nya masih ada,lantas tiba2 hilang semuanya dalam sekelip mata. Tiba-tiba satu perasaan mnyelinap masuk ke dalam hatinya.Rasa seolah-olah hati dan organ-organ dalamannya trjatuh ke bawah.Tekak dan esophagus tiba-tiba trasa pahit,tetapi bibir dgn snyuman masih lagi digam di muka. Hatinya bertanya, air mata?Mintak maapla,dah kering~Tapi takpe, si S/U takkan mnyerah kalah pada keadaan. Dia lntas buat mcm biasa je, mcm takda ape2 berlaku lntas mula menaip semula list2 org bwhn kedalam komputer trsebut.Alhamdulillah Afifah ada hard copy.Maka si S/U stay di pejabat shingga pukul 11 shaja krana Officer2 dah nak blik. List org bwhn still tak dapat disiapkan.

S/U dan rakan sepejabatnya, yg tadi yg Sharing Moment tu, menuju ke AMF bersama-sama. Masih lagi mmpu trsenyum, tapi muka, hati dan perasaan sudah pun penat.S/U cuma mmberitahu tntng prkara itu kpd K. Nazihah selaku PM shaja. Di dewan discussion tlah pun tamat,cuma mnunggu satu fasi bg satu group utk mnghentikan pnghasilan perkataan yg trlalu bnyak...kmudian bg melegakan sdikit perasaannya, si S/U lntas cuba utk mmbntu mnyusun krusi,tpi dilarang oleh officer krana kerja itu kerja org lain.Rakan baik si S/U telah pun pulang dulu kerana sesungguhnya mereka ada Chem lab report utk disiapkan dn dhntar esok.S/U yg hmpir tak bersemangat masih tidak mahu pulang,ttpi setelah kak nazihah mmnta tolong kpd Ynatie utk mmnjamkan lptopnya kpd S/U,lntas S/U bjalan pulang kerana malu untuk mmnta2.

 Si S/U lepak sbntar di lobi hotel dgn niat ingin brseorgn dan mnenangkan perasaan,dia kmudian mnutup matanya dan berlagak seperti org kene halau rumate suh kluar dr bilik.Rakan2nya dtg dan prgi,setelah ofer utk mmbantu ditolak oleh S/U.Setelah itu S/U mmbuka kmbali matanya,pergi mngambil lptop drpd Yanti dan mnuju ke bilik hotelnya utk bersiap2 mmbuat discussion chem Lab report.Setelah dihentam dan dilanyak dan dilantak,akhirnya siap juga report pd pukul 1 suku pagi.S/U lntas naik semula ke biliknya utk mnyelesaikan masalahnya.Dicari2 dikorek melalui emel dan file download dlm lptop yntie,alhamdulillah S/U mmnjatkan ksyukuran kerana separuh drpd file2 yg hilang dapat diganti.Sekali lagi pd malam itu S/U berniat utk tidak tidur,(lntas mnjadikan rekod tak tido 2 mlm brturut2) tetapi tnpa disedari,setelah beberapa kali tersengguk dihadapan lptop, si S/U hilang kesedaran,unconscious org Puteh kata. Dia lgsung tak tahu apa yg trjadi.

tiba2 S/U trsedar semula apabila hensetnye brbunyi akibat alarm yg ntah bile dia set kan. Hmm?
Aku kat mana ni?Dia mmrhati sekeliling.Atas katil???S/U hairan.Macamna dia boleh berada atas katil sdgkan dia mmg btul2 ingat pd mlm td dia tak jejak katil lgsung!Seingat dia,dia hnya trsengguk di depan laptop!Jika dia sndri yg naik atas katil,sudah semestinya laptop yntie akan di shut down trlebih dahulu.Tetapi laptop yanti masih sihat wal afiat,segar bugar!Hmmm...Puas S/U memerah otak,adakah dia sndri yg naik katil pd mlm itu,atau.....ada 'sesuatu' yg angkat dia naik katil???Hmmm....

(Alhamdulillah,wlupun rekod tak tido dua mlm tak dpt dipecahkan,tapi sekurang2nya S/U dapat la tido wlupn skjap~dalam klas Chem,si S/U mneruskan senggukkan nye setelah sekian lama dia dah tak tersengguk dlm klas)

Busy,busy,busy!!!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.
Dengan ini dilaporkan bahawa hidup penulis blog ini telah mnjadi bizi scara tiba2 starting from awal bulan 8 ni.Bulan 8 dilaporkan bulan paling busy bagi FRC.HUhu~

Awal bulan 8 dimulakan dgn exam RIM(Religion In Malaysia), diikuti dgn meeting I-MerCe(Islamic Merdeka Celebration).

5,6,7 August,meeting utk LeadTrain(Leadership n Training Programme) 1st Session,pemilihan committee,aku jdi Asst Secretary yg juga btggungjawab mmegang Attendance.

8-9 August,LeadTrain 1st Session berlangsung.

Next

12,13,14 August,meeting LeadTrain 2nd Session,pemilihan committee,aku ngn Falaha pegang Catering ngn Khairi n Mujairimi.Bleh byang tak ape jadi?

15,16 AUgust,LeadTrain 2nd Session berlangsung.Comittee Catering paling besh!!!

18,19 August,meeting FasTrain (Fasilitators' Training)
mcm kem Nuqaba' gitu..tp brutal sket...hehe

20,21,22 August,FasTrain at PDS Training camp,Port Dickson
berakit2....huaaaa


23,24,25 August,busy buat keje n meeting FaRGather(Fasilitators' Ramadhan Gathering)
Ade meeting I-MerCe skalik
Bukak posa ramai2

26 August,FaRGather

31 August,supposed to have I-MerCe,tp tlah di'cancel'kan oleh sebab2 tertentu...

Sekian saje laporan idop tuan punya blog pd bulan 8 ini.Harap maklom...

McLEAD continued

Salam...

Sambung story pasal McLEAD.Smpai mane dah kita?
Owh ye..ye..smpai meeting almanac tu ea...so meting tu kitorg dok atas karpet...
Dengar setiap wakil society bntang kat depan,FSCC taip masok dllm laptop.
Agak boring la jgak~...sbb rase cam tak pnting pon nak dgr ape yg kelab lain cakap.
Huhuhu..kesian diorg...So kitorg dok r lepak2 smbil sndar kat dinding(kitorg dok kat blakang mase tu,dok ikot society,so aku dok ngn Syafiq ngn Burhanudin)
Yang si Syafiq ngn Burhanudin ni,ramai plak yg dok lepak2 ngn diorg kat blakang...
Anas Mazli,Hanif Md Noor,Azam,Majdi dan ramai agi r...dok satu geng kat situ
Aku plak cam tak berteman jek...seb bek Shaz ade
Yang best(dan agak pelik bagi aku)
Tyme Burhanudin ke depan nak bntang utk FRC,ramai giler yg tepuk tngan!Cam meriah je!Macam la FRC ni lg beso dri FSCC gamaknye...
Nak kata terharu tu...boleh la...tp cam pelik pon ade...

Esoknye plak,mcm besa ade morninng stretch...pastu talk on "Event Management and Protocol" oleh Mr Syairoz.Bleh r nak kate best,tp talk die bg tu mmg brguna la...bagos!
Ade la gak aku tnye soklan...besa2 ja...(mcm aktif plak aku tnye2 soklan)wakaka

Petang tu talk lg...
"Leadership from Islamic Perspective" by Bro Izdihar
"Student activities:Constitution at CFSIIUM" by Mdm Rose
Nama FRC ade disebut mase dalam talk ni,dan skli lg,mmg ramai yg tepuk tgn...(aku pon tepok skali la...kuat giler aku tepuk!)
aku pon tak paham npe diorg tpuk...tp aku takut la gak...
bukan ape..aku tkut...tpuk tgn je gempak,keje buat hampehhh~...

Tapi tyme talk ni mmg ramai r yg ngntuk~

aku tolong gosok2 blakang k. syera n wan..sian diorg..penat ea McLEAD ni

Petang lg ade grup discussion,bncang nak watpe dlm TalenTime malam tuh.
Hahahaha...kitorg acting wooo...besa2 ja...
So malam tu TalenTime!!!
Klu nak tau...kitorg dpt no. 2!!Tak sgka lgsung!

Bukak hadiah reramai...makan sesame dlm grup..best gak r...

The next day,tiba la masenye nak balik
tpi pgi tu ade presentation of almanac by FSCC...so kitorg dok kat dewan
pastu ade sesi fotografi...ramai la yg jdik artis...ramai jugak yg jadik fotografer
flash sane,flash sini..aku sbnarnye agak kurang phm org yg suka tgkap gambar muka atau yg suka masuk dalam gambar
tapi aku tak pelik plak klu org yg tgkap gmbar mnde2 selain manusia nih!
Pastu kemas2 barang,beg,check out
rase sayang la plak nk tinggal2kan suma kenangan kt situ
tak bleh nak buat ape...kene blik PJ gak...

yg best nye..mknn nye mmg best2!tak tau nak cakap cmne r..korg sndri kene g tgok dn rase cmner...nyum2...sedapnye nikmat Allah bagi...fuhhh....
lagi...kat resort tu ade swimming pool!Yg pompuan tak leh mndi r...laki je...mase talenTime tu buat sblah swimming pool la...ade boyan skalik!Besh giler aku men boyan!!!

Hmmm...yg pastinye,setiap kenangan manis tu,pasti akn mbawa kenangan pahit...Bila kita dah rasa seronok,kemudiannye kita akan rasa sedih dan perit utk tinggalkan kenangan tuh.
Tapi ape yg kita bleh buat?Takleh buat pape...tinggalkan je la kenangan tuh...
Sbb tu la sumtimes ade org prefer taknak ade kenangan manis...sbb takut akn kecewa kerana trpaksa mnninggalkan kenangan tu...takutkan kekecewaan...
Kenangan..utk dikenang...setelah dikenang,rasa hmpa...sbb kenangan tu dah tinggalkan kita...

sedih je...

McLEAD. Precious experience.

Salam.
McLEAD:Management Course for Student Leaders.
Place:Puteri Resort,Ayer Keroh,Melaka
Date:9 July-12 July 2009
Participants:All Presidents, Vice Presidents and Secretaries of all societies, clubs, committees and councils.

Sampai je resort tu,mmg chantekk.Ala...'resort'...klu tak chantek takde namenye resort
Bkumpul kat dewan,Puteri Ballroom 1 namenye.Ramai2 dok kat situ.
Perasaan,memang takut.Rendah diri.Rase macam sape je aku ni nak ade kat sane?
Kt situ sume nye jawatan beso2...Presidents,Vice Presidents..jawatan tinggi2 sumenye.
Aku plak mcm sesat kat situ.Menyemak.Takut aku.Rase down jek.

Ye ar..kat situ sumenye 'somebody'...aku mcm 'nobody' jek...

Malam,start talk.Ustaz Hamidon,salah,DATO' Hamidon.Dah nek pgkat.
Aku suke cara die bercakap.Isi talk die tu berguna,wlupon aku tak dengar sgt ape die ckp.
wakakaka
Malam tu sblum talk mula, si majdi ckp yg die terpaksa lepaskn salah satu jawatan die,same ade President MRC, atau Vice President 1 FRC.
Kesian kat die.Die sayang dua2 jawatan tuh.Die sayang FRC.
FRC pon sayang die jugak,tapi ape kan daye...
Sepanjang talk malam tuh aku dok pikir pasal tuh.And pikir pasal almanac FRC.
TU yg sampai tak dgr ape Ust Hamidon cakap.
Lepas habes talk,aku,Wan,Brhanudin n Syafiq wat meeting jap.Disertai Majdi.
Nak settlekan almanac,n nak bncang masalah Majdi.
Last2 Majdi ckp die akn lepaskan FRC.Takpe,kitorg rehdho je..ala,mcm la die dah takleh join FRC klu die lepaskan jawatan tuh?

Next day,pg ade morning stretch...pastu talk,ramai yg tanye soklan...si syafiq suwoh aku tnye soklan...aku je yg taknak...huahua...soklan dia yg bg,die la yg kene tnye...wakakaka

rase trcbar woo...die suwoh aku tnye...next talk pasal financial planning dri AKPK,aku dah siap rncang soklan ape nk tanye...last2 tak trtanye jugak..sbb ade org dah amk dulu soklan aku tuh...mmg,klu nak tnye tp bukan niat btol2 nak tnye nih,mmg tak trcapai ek..huahua,salah niat...

Yang bestnye,talk petang tuh,Kolonel Afandi.Tajuk talk:Attitude and Discipline of Leaders.
Die terang macamne ciri2 leaders nih.Ade jgak die ckp,
"If you don't have these qualities,baek awak hntar surat letak jwatan cepat2."
Aku cam terasa la gak tyme die ckp tuh.Ye la.aku mane la ade ciri2 leadership yg die ckp tuh.
Aku cakap kat Wan,"Aku letak jawatan la mcm ni Wan."
Pastu yg si Wan ni plak g bg mesej kat Syafiq kate aku nak letak jawatan.
Errr......aku...err.....emmm....(.......)

Yg bestnye,aku ade soklan nak ditanye.Dan soklan tu datangnye dari diri aku sndri.Dan aku mmg nak tnye soklan tu.Bukan sebab d cabar atau ape.
Soklannye,aku tnye die
"Ape pndapat anda tntang satu society ni,yg melantik seorg leader krana dah takde org len nak jd leader,tetapi leader yg dilantik tu takde pngalaman LNGSUNG dalm leadership nih?"
Pastu die tnye aku,
"Orang yg dilantik tu,sggup tak jadik leader?"
Aku jwb balik,
"Yes,die sggup."
Aku rase puas ati dengar jawapan die utk soklan tuh.Rase macam aku dah jmpe sesuatu yg hilang.
Nak tau ape jawapan yg kolonel tu bg?

"Takpe.Yang penting,kesanggupan die utk jdik leader tuh.She is daring to take the challenge to be a leader."

Kesanggupan tuh.Itu yg aku carik.Sebab aku sggup.(Btol ke aku sggup?)

Pastu die smbung lg,

"tapi support dari anak buah amat penting utk leader tuh."

Yang si Wan ni plak gi hntar mesej,tulis bnde yg sama sperti di atas,pstu hntar kat Syafiq.Lepas tu,mula la henset aku tak brenti2 mesej masok.mesej2 supportive sumenye.

Trime kaseh r korg...bg support kat aku...huhu

Petang tu ade 'The Hunt'.Best giler lari2 dow!Dah lame aku tak berlari...wow!yeah!
Malam tu,sebelum meting almanac,si Syafiq ajak jmpe.Aku ajak Wan teman.
Dia tnye,
"ade mnde2 nak ckp?"
Aku tau,die nak tnye pasal ape yg dah jd petang tadi mase talk Kolonel tu.(yg aku cakap nk letak jawatn tuh)Serius,aku tk tau nak ckp ape..

Memang aku ade ckp aku nak letak jwtn,tapi aku just cakap je.Memang la aku just cakap je yg aku nak letak jawatan,tp deep in my heart,aku mngiyakan ape yg aku cakap tuh.Ye.mmg aku ade rase cmtu.

Si Syafiq tu plak trkejut bile Wan bg mesej cakap aku nak letak jwtn.
Aku plak,malam tu just bitau diorg dua patah je,

"Jangan risau."

Si Syafiq tu tnya,berapa peratus persediaan nak jdik Vice nih?
Aku cam trpana dgr soklan tuh,tak sure nak jwab cmne.
Mmg aku willing nak pgg jwatan tuh,tpi deep in my heart,aku tak yakin ngn kebolehan diri sndri.
Pengalaman aku pn tak cukup2(tak tau bila nak cukup).So aku jawab,

"90%."

Aku sndri pon tak tau btol ke tak 90% tuh.
Syafiq tu cakap,

"kemana hilangnye lg 10% tu agaknye?"

Ntahla Syafiq,aku pon tak tau.

Mase jumpe die malam tuh,aku takut aku nanges je(cehh...nges je keje nye),sbb bile org nk jmpe aku,nak tnye ape perasaan aku..aku jdik takut,nerves.Sebab aku rase mcm aku dah buat salah.Naseb baek aku tak nnges.Tapi agak tak slesa la jgak ble kene tnye camtuh,sbb aku tak brani nak berterus terang.

Dont worry about me la you guys...biarla aku down pon,korg wat bodo je...takyah susah2 nak pikir pasal aku..aku ni je ha yg emotional trlebih kot...mmg feelings aku cepat mixed up...yg penting,korg jgn sedey2,jgn down...sbb klu korg down,automatically aku down,aku jdik risau.so korg sume kene happy sntiasa...tau?=)
Anyway,thanks la Presiden,buat susah2 je support aku...and to all of you to...

Klau aku sndri willing nak hold on to that post,jd aku la kene buat bnde tuh.
I'll do it,because of that willingness.
"Allah takkan mmbebankan hambaNya melainkan yg dia mmpu."
(msg yg Presiden bg kt aku)
God gives me this,God knows it better than me.I go with the flow of Allah.

(P/S:Citer pasal McLEAD tak abes lg.Tunggu smbungannyer..)

"Aku ni idop lagi ke?"(Surat untuk diri sendiri)

Assalamualaikum.

Macamne ngn hidop aku sbg seorg vice?
(Pembaca:"Haish budak ni...tak abes2 lg ngn VICE die tu...")

Okeh2.Tp tak kira.Nak citer gak.

Hmmm...yes.Bizi tu mmg busy.
Ke aku sorg je yg rase bizi,vice2 laen tak rase pon...?
Ntah.Yang pastinye,tetibe je idop aku rase mcm bnyak giler bnde nak buat.
Huhu...mungkin aku TERKEJOT kot...

tak penah pgg jwtn vice sblom ni..huhu

ha'ah...mcm biase..bnde mngganggu fikiran aku
yg peliknye,setiap kli aku rase cam busy giler
rase cam takleh nak wat keje
rase cam bnyak sangat bnde yg tak siap lg
bnyak sgt tanggungjawab
aku akan tanya kat diri sndri

"Aku ni idop lagi ke tak?"

Macam tak yakin plak yg sekarang ni aku tengah mnjalani kehidupan
Tak sedar pon yg sbenarnya sekarang ni actually I'm alive
Pastu aku akan jawab blik kat diri aku, "Aku idop lagi...aku idop lagi..."
Huu...

Mood aku amat senang berubah. So bile mood baik aku datang,tetibe aku jadik semangat.
Aku cakap kat diri sndri(kire macam surat utk diri sndri la ni):

"Fine!Ape yg aku kene skrang ni,
ape yg aku kene pikul skrang ni,
aku akan pikul!
Aku nak tengok sejauh mane aku bleh bawak bnde ni.
Aku nak cabar diri aku sndri
Fatehah,ko kan KUAT,takkan la dgn ujian mcm ni pon ko nk down?
Tak yah dengar perasaan buruk ko tu.
Tak yah rase tergugat atau lemah semangat.

Ko tu ade kelebihan diri sndri!
Klu ko suke tolong org,ko tolong org selagi mmpu.
Klu ko terer wat org bahagia,ko buat org happy sebaik mungkin.
Biar pon ko tu bknnye seorg vice yg baik dan brpengalaman,
biarpon ko tak tau ape2 dalam me 'lead2' org ni
biarpon ko tu bodoh dalam system organisasi2 ni
biarpon ko know NOTHING psal bnde ni
tpi ko buat ape yg ko boleh buat.
You do what you think you're best in.
Ape yg ko pndai buat,ko strive giler2 kt citu.
Ape yg ko tak pndai buat,BLAJA.
Ko kan suke blaja bnde baru...
Ko tak yah dengar cakap org,ko buat ape yg ko mmpu.

Tak de org nak support ko?
PDULIK kn je mereka tuh.
Diorg tu cume reti mgharap je.
Manusia,mmg camtu.
Nak mgharap.mgharap la dari Allah.
Okay,mmg jadik ketua,sume org brharap ngn ko.
Takpe2,kite tgok.
Klu aku mmpu buat ape yg korang harapkan,aku buat.
Klu aku tak mmpu,jgn nak PUSH2 aku,ok!

Ape lagi yg ko perlukan...ALLAH kan ade.
Allah pon dah cukup.
Allah kan Maha Kuasa,Allah kan Pemegang segala-galanya.
Buat ape ko nak takut?

Kan...?

Sekejap je dah hilang kan?

Assalamualaikum.
Hri ni nak citer pasal FRC.
Asalnye,FRC terdiri drpd 6 lelaki,6 pompuan.
Lelaki:Majdi,Shahril,Hafiz,Uzair,Nazrul dan Hadi.
Pompuan:Wan Atikah,Shaz,Afifah,K. Madihah,Falaha n aku.

Sekarang,FRC dah bubar.Lantik committee baru.
Committee yg lelaki,takde sorg pon yg stay jd FRC.
Hadi dah g Nilai Campus,Shahril dah diculik FSCC,Uzair n Nazrul tak isi borg
Hafiz hilang ntah ke mana,Majdi plak MRC.

Yg pompuan,2 org kene cekop.
Timb president n s/u kitorg,Wan Tikah n Shaz.

Kalau nak tgok,senang je Allah nak tarik sesuatu drpd kita.
Allah lah Pemilik segala-galanya.

Last2,comittee baru ni
aku jadik VICE PRESIDENT 2.
Aku ulang,
aku jd VICE PRESIDENT 2.
Ntah ape la demam diorg kt dalam bilik mesyuarat tu nak lntik aku yg takde pngalaman ni jdik VICE PRESIDENT 2.Majdi Vice President 1.
Layak ke aku?
Aku ni sape?
Sorg pompuan yg cume pndai senyum n buat baik kat org laen,nak kontrol adik sndri pon,adik sndri buat dengar tak dengar je.
Huh.

Kalau nak tengok,sekejap je Allah nak tarik nikmat masa lapang aku.
Allah lah Pemilik segala-galanya.

Lepas je aku dlantik mnjadi VICE PRESIDENT 2,
aku rase cam ade sumting yg berat giler dalam hati nih
rasa cam tak selesa,amat2 tak selesa.
Terasa yg tanggungjawab tu berat NAK MAMPOS.
Sepanjang hari tu,dalam otak aku penuh pasal bnde tu je.
Aku dah jd VICE.Aku kene brtanggungjawab.Aku kene busy.Aku kene wat keje.
Macamne klu aku tetibe trmiss pandang tggungjawab aku?
Mcmne klu aku breakdown,takleh nak wat keje?
Cmne klu takde SAPE-SAPE nak tolong aku wat keje?
Sebelah kaki aku dah ade dalam Neraka.
Memang AMAT-AMAT mngganggu fikiran aku


Tengah klas pon dok pikir pasal tu.
Tengah makan pon pikir pasal tu.
Tengah solat pon hati rase mcm tak slesa je.
Trok btol.
Dalam solat,aku mntak Allah supaya bntu aku bnyak2.
Bntu aku jdik seorg yg baik.Vice President yg baik.
Huu...
Ya Allah...

Mungkin dah takdir mcm tu.Bak kata Scha,dah trcatat dlm Luh Mahfuz.
Takpe.Yang penting,cukup lah Allah as my Protector.
As long as He is always there for me.
If God says I can do it,then no one can prevent me from doing it.
La yukallifullahu nafsan illa wus'aha.
Allah la segala-galanya.

2 July 2009.Tarikh KERAMAT.(Keramat la sangat~)

Pagi.Kol 8.10 am.

Gi ke LTD(Leadership n Training Dept.).
FRC ade sesi perlantikan jawatan bersama Bro Izdihar,Deputy Dean LTD.
Aku dilantik mnjadi Vice President 2.

WHATTTT??!!

Abes meeting kol 9.30 am.
Ustaz Nazri pnggil buat keje sket.

Sampai kol 9.40-9.50 am.
Gi makan jap kt UCafe.

Kol 10.00am.
Ade klas RIM(Religion in Malaysia).

Sampai kol 12 pm.
Gi teman rumate aku pg UKC2.Jumpa Fellow.

Lebih kurang kol 1pm.
Gi makan kt Zainab cafe ngn Falaha.

Sampai kol 2pm.(aku makan lama!)
Balik bilik,solat,tido.



Sampai 3.30pm.
Patutnye gi tangkap gambar kat STAD,gmbar FRC.
So bangun2 tido tros gi STAD ngn Falaha.

Tangkap gambar sampai kol 4.10pm.
Ade klas Fizik kol 4pm patutnye,so lambat r gi kelas.
Seb bek Madam Adibah tak marah.
("Kluar dari kelas saya!".Wakakakaka)

Klas sampai kol 6pm.
Balik bilik solat.

Kol 6.15pm.
Gi STAD,nk settlekan dak pompuan punye tgkap gambar.
Alhamdulillah selesai kecuali sorang.
K. Nazihah.

Tunggu k. Nazihah,tak datang2 sampai kol 7pm.
Balik bilik,dapat mesej k. Nazihah ondaway nak blik umah daa...
tak dapat nak tgkap gambar die.
Aku tak makan malam lagi tuh.
Tetibe rumate aku offer char kuay teow die.
Alhamdulillah..thanks Ida...


7.10pm.
Gi bilik Yanti,amik senarai nama fasi dan anak buah.
Patutnye nak kene edar malam ni jugak.Tp sempat ke?
Tak,tak sempat.Tanye Majdi,die kate boleh nak edar mggu depan.


Solat,bace Quran,sampai kol 8.30pm.
Start pnjam laptop Ida,taip name2 fasi untuk ditampal mggu depan.
Sambil mnyambil,bukak emel,blog.

Sampai 10.30pm depan laptop.
Falaha datang bilik aku tnye Math.Itu dan ini.
Sori r Falaha,tak fokus,so takbleh nak jawab.

Solat,kol 11pm g jumpa Shafiq Kamil,Presiden FRC.
Pulang blazer n kamera.

11 lebih.
Gi bilik k. Syera kat KC.Ingat nak amik assignment RIM nak print.
Last2 lepak kat bilik tu,k.Syera bg compilation paper Math3.
Suruh aku ngn Falaha edar2 kn kat dak2 ZC.
Die suruh bg kt Jaffar skalik.

Kol 12am.
Dapat mesej dari Shafiq Kamil,Majdi dan K.Hidayatul.
Nabil Marwan,budak DQ,UIA yg bakal masuk campus kuantan
Meninggal dunia.Die ade sakit bengkak hati.Innalillahi wainna ilaihi raaji'uun.
Naek bulu roma k. Syera mndgrnye.Yela,die pn DQ gak.

12.04am.
Gi jumpe Jaffar kt mesen ATM Bank Islam.
Bg kat die compilation paper tu.

12.20am.
Sampai bilik.Pastu kuar balik,pegi edar2 kan compilation paper kt dak2 ZC.

Sampai bilik Wan,12.30am kot.
Borak2,bncang2,Wan mntak tolong aku buat keje.
Ok.

Balik bilik,12.40am.
Laptop depan mata,Ida bg pnjam.
Sebelum aku mula keje,kemas2 meja dlu.
Pastu start guna laptop.

Sekarang,2.30am.
Tengah update blog.

5.30am.
Tak tido LAGI??

FYI,dari kol 7ptg td sampai kol 12 lebih,
enset aku dok mesej masok je.
tangan aku tak berenti2 balas mesej
kejap2 org ni hntar mesej,jap2 org len plak antar mesej.
sampai abis bateri enset aku,mampos.

Huh.busy woman plak aku harini.God,help me.God,help me.

Aku pegang jawatan?!

Huhuhu...salam....

Dah tau tajuk post kali ni?

Jom kite dengarkan...



Ok...kitorang...(dak2 uia) akan ade Leadtrain...

Leatrain tu macam...eemmm...KPTI la...

tapi bukan untuk pemahaman islam...

die macam untuk ajar cara2 jd leader la...

huhuu...program tu hujung minggu je...

wajib utk sumer first year student...

tup2 dijadikan citer...

aku tlah lantik jd program manager...
eh tak...maksud aku...
aku tlah dlantik mnjadi assistant program manager...
huhuhu...takut gak rr...
ape la kngkawan aku tu...
ttibe je cdg name aku.....
tak patut2....
tp takpe...
diorg ckp keje nye snng je...
takyah riso...
so aku jadi je la...
tapi pngalamn nyer best rr...
dpt jd ketua pd org lain...hahahahahahaha...
(pembaca:Gile kuase ke pew?!)

ok2...
tapi ade gak masalah yg timbul...
masalahnye skrg ni...
masalah tu timbul oleh ajk sndri...
dan ajk2 nye adlh sumer kawan aku!!
adoiyai...
ade ke patut...
diorg gi suruh aku komen ajk lain (juge kwn diorg)
huhuhu...
keje aku aadlh mnguruskan program...name pon program manager kan...
bukannnye ajk manager...
ok...ngkin aku yg tak phm keje program manager tu cne...
tp npe aku plak kene slesai kan masalah antara budak bdua tu??
huisshh...musykil2....
tapi ape2 je la...
aku dapat la pnglaman skit sbnyk...
bleh nmpk la aku ni bleh jd leader atau tak...hehehehe...
poyo je...

korg agk2 aku bleh jd leader ke tak??
Ntoh le...
tapi aku rase
aku lg pandai buat keje yg org suroh
berbanding mnyuruh org buat keje...huhu
takpe2...pengalaman...