The feeling of mingling with Earthlings

Bismillah.

Argh, seriously, I need to mingle with humans more.

Mana tak nya, pergi kelas, bawak laptop.

Balik kelas, bukak laptop.

Nak tido, tengok laptop.

Nak makan, depan laptop.

Nyum nyum laptop, I wish I could eat you omnomnom

Like laptop tu teman hidup aku. Whenever I feel lonely I go switch on my laptop.

"For what? Bukannya laptop tu boleh layan kau bercerita pun?"

Memang la. Tapi FB ada.

Besides, I have chatted with a (quite clever) bot in the internet.

And you know what, I even go on a date in my laptop.

Even worse my date wasn't even real.

Huh. How pathetic.

Macam tu lah teruknya kalau hidup dah terlalu ditarik masuk ke alam fantasi ni. FB tu pun, walaupun real people do exist in there, but that doesn't feel realistic at all. Including Twitter and all other social networking sites ya.

Walaupun kau chat, balas komen, post/baca status, in real life entah-entah you don't even talk to them, or meet them. Entah-entah you in the FB/Twitter are a different person when compared to you in real life.

Huh. Yup. That's what I meant when I said, "Please PULL ME OUT OF HERE!"

PULL!!!

Tolonglah tarik aku keluar bila aku dah terlalu sesak hidup dalam dunia fantasi.

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Alhamdulillah. Baru-baru ni bertugas jaga gerai jual makanan budak satu batch.

And that's where I mingle with humans.

Oh you don't know how that feels. Aku yang selama ini hidup bersama-sama laptop, seolah-olah sudah mendapat nafas baru. (eceh ayat)

Mingling with humans, helping them helping each other out, giving and receiving, making others and yourself happy, suddenly a kind of feeling seeps into my heart. The feeling of mingling with other humans. The feeling of socializing.

Suddenly I feel like, "Ada jugak benda lain selain daripada study."

Your tempurung is broken, and now you can see the sunlight shining through.

Haha, beautiful, isn't it? :)

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Tapi nanti tengah hari, berbahang la pulak cahaya matahari tu. Huhu.

Penyumbang idea ialah pelaksana idea mereka sendiri

Bismillah.

Manusia. Bagi cadangan mudah je. Bila nak laksanakan, kena pikir 2-3 kali dulu.

Satu je alasannya: malas.

Biasalah tu. Malas nak bertanggungjawab atas idea sendiri.

Itu kalau persendirian. Kalau berpersatuan? Atau dalam group biasa?

Berpersatuan, where you face everything together

Takut nak bagi idea sebab takut nanti disuruhnya kita laksanakan sendiri idea tuh.

Sepatutnya, one gives the idea while the others support. Then we’ll do it together. Tak semestinye si pemberi idea yang kena jadi ketua or jadik pengarah untuk melaksanakan ideanya itu.

Yes of course la it will be better if the contributor of the idea him/herself yang conduct the whole project they are going to do. Sebab they know better of their ideas so they can work it out perfectly. Tapi tak semua pandai untuk jadi ketua atau pengarah. Kalau semua pemberi idea mesti menjadi pengarah kepada idea mereka, kalau macam tu jangan harap lah nak dengar idea-idea bernas dari kawan-kawan kita yang senyap pemalu sambil senyum sipu-sipu tuh.

Huhu.

Anyway, I admit it, I’ve been through this before. Aku juga pernah percaya pada stigma ini (note the past tense used): ‘Penyumbang idea ialah pelaksana idea mereka sendiri’. And I also admit it, it was my mistake. Setelah aku juga merasa bagaimana seperti ditinggalkan keseorangan untuk mejalankan idea sendiri, maka aku mengerti orang lain juga pasti tak nak melalui pengalaman yang sama.

So, 1. I’m sorry kalau ada sapa-sapa yang pernah aku lakukan sebegini ke atasnya, dan

2. Let me know if you have an idea and you would need my help in realizing it.

If I feel like I am able to help, then insyaAllah I will.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

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You know why I don't write a lot recently? Well, I guess I ran off of some clever things to write about. If they weren't clever enough then people wouldn't read it, would they? Lee Child said there's no use writing a book if no one's gonna read it. Or maybe it was just me, running a little low on self-esteem after reading a lot of ''clever' things people post in their blogs and stuffs. Anyway, that's not important right now. You got yourself to take care of, and others who need you. So, I understand that you're busy. So, goodbye for now. Hope I can see you again.