Decisions

Bismillah.

Decisions, decisions.

Sometimes I put the blame on being an adult.

Well, if you were a kid then other people make decisions for you, right? They’ll tell you where to spend your money, where you should not go, who should you be friends with, how you should spend your time in...

Meddlesome, but at least you don’t need to bear the consequences if said orders didn’t return rewards as promised. Also, as a kid, you’ll have your adults to depend on.

As adults...you face the consequences alone. Afterall, it’s you who made that decision.

You start to wonder, did I make the wrong one?

...

Itu gunanya tawakkal.

Fine, memang dah lama aku berkira-kira nak join kelas drumming. Aku ingat lagi masa sebulan lebih kot aku baru kerja, aku cakap aku minat nak join. Ni, sekarang dah 2 tahun setengah.

Kau rasa aku still belum ready ke?

...It’s not that you’re ready or not...it’s the possible disappointment that might follow.

Would you stay long enough to be good in it? Would it be a good investment of your time, money and energy? Nevermind that you don’t really own a drum set, pretty sure you can buy that one later. But is this the right direction for you?

...You’ve been thinking about this for two years and you’re still doubting it?

What else can I do?

...Again, that’s the use of tawakkal.

You’ve prayed to God. Let’s also pray for Him to help you with the decision. If it’s good, He’ll help you. If it’s bad, He’ll help you get through it.

Thanks, God.