Alone.

Bismillah.

Alone.

Somehow, it doesn’t ring anything to me, that word.

Because somehow, the word ‘alone’ has a negative connotation to it, and I’m not feeling anything negative about being on my own.

I’m not alone. There are people around me.

Housemates, colleagues, family, those waiters at restaurants, the auxiliary polices I see everyday on my way to work, the crowd...

See, there are people.

I’m not alone.

...BUT!

Lonely. Now, that's a feeling.

Hey, it's never wrong to admit you're feeling it. Same like anger, sadness, sorrow etc., you can feel lonely too.

The need to depend on someone else.

I wonder, is it a rational need? Is it reasonable? Is it needed, really?

I...don't know.