Ujian.

Bismillah.

Mendoukusai naa.

This week I'll be flying off to Japan.

But I don't feel as happy.

- Because you're not in control.

There are a lot of places I wanna go, but of course, you need to follow the leader right?

Mendoukusai naa.

Mendoukusai naa.

- Syhh.

- You'll get your chance.

- Your time will come.

- Hitori bocchi.

Lol. Hitori bocchi, until you found someone. If not, then hitori bocchi.

Not fair?

Life itself isn't fair. If it is, then why do heavens exist?

It's not fair, so don't have to look forward to it.

What's wrong with being down once in a while? That's what people call living, isn't it?

If you're not happy with them, then leave.

- Yeah, just keep leaving until you have no one left.

Then you'll really be hitori bocchi.

Like you aren't hitori bocchi enough.

...I'm just tired. So shut up.

Tired.

I want my own back.

...Huh. Then I'll get the opposite of it huh?

What's the point of asking anyway?

...God says don't lose hope.

...Sometimes I hate being a human, because of all these 'tests' and stuff.

If I shouldn't lose hope then why am I given a heart that can feel? A heart that can despair?

...It's called a test for a reason.

Sabar lah. Terima nasib. You are not hopeless. Bukannya ko diciptakan menjadi manusia, maksudnya kau terus tak ada harapan.

Tu nama dia ujian, tau?

Accept this feeling, and do what with it?

What can I do with feelings?