Tempat Blasah + DEAN I tell you!!!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

27 January 2010. Wednesday.
Hari ni, aku bngun2 jep,aku tros target event yg akan blngsung malam tu.
Guess what?Tunggu aku habes citer yee..

Okep.Story started as usual,klas starts at 7am..huargghh....mnguap
kind of ngntuk, tpi luckily fah bwk biskut jacobs yg rangup tuh
(sori fah,tringat tin biskut tu dah kemek,aku buat blatih ketuk percussion...huhu)
klas habis kol 9,then go to the beloved frc agd booth in front of irk..
dok jaga2...smbil2 study fizik lab
tetibe mesej masuk
"Tahniah, EFARASACH,kumpulan anda berjaya mndapat tmpat ketiga!"
lepas je dpt msj tu, aku trus senyum, astaghfirullah..astaghfirullah..huuu
mcm tak caye pn ade, nak hepi ke tak..huhu
alhamdulillah...
"~tiap usaha kesungguhanmu pasti ada ganjaran~.."
i keep reminding myself of that tgah2 syok buat performance kt stage tu
thanks guys..

then that afternoon, ikut falah gi ltd,then gi follow up vip,sape VIP yg nak gi Annual Grand Dinner kitorg nnti
feefah dah siapkan invitation card,then we are going to send it to the Dean
haha..bajek berani..name dean tnya sume org,sume tak tahu!!
Ya Allah..pe nak jadi..name je student UIA tp tak tau name Dean sndri!
haha..ckp kat diri sndri gak
yang aku tau nama Dean ialah "Assoc. Prof. Dato' Dr.Syed Zahir Idid b. Syed Osman Idid"

So kat atas invitation card tu takde la btulis lagi nama Dean...
ingat aku ngn Falaha nk gi tnya kat PA dia..
so aku pn ikut je la Falah gi OFFICE OF THE DEAN..haha,saje buat uppercase

tekan loceng kat tepi pntu tu
(utk pngetahuan,pintu dean takleh men masuk camtu je,kene tekan loceng,baru PA dia bukakkan)
so....

ting,tong...

ade org bukak pntu.And guess who?

The DEAN himself! (ni la die) ==>

Oh my GOD!aku tak prepare pape nak ckp ngn dean!(and suddenly aku jdik gelabah jumpe die)
yela, mane tak nye
kitorg dtg pejabat die nak tnya PA dia psl nama penuh die
tgok2 org nye sndri ade depan mata!
Apa,ingat kitorg nak tnya sndri nama kt tuan punya badan tuh?haha

so..for almost three minutes kitorg dok berbisik2 kat depan pntu pejabat DEAN tuh
"Falaha!Dean tu!"   "Ye!"  "Dah tu nak masuk ke tak?"  "Tapi tak tulis name die pn lagi!"  "Bgi je takleh ke?"
"Nak jumpe PA die je!Adoi.."  "Fatehah,masuk la dulu!"  "Serius ke nak masuk ni?"

DEAN dekat dlm tu dah dok memanggil2 suh masuk
"Nape,ingat aku ni makan org ke takut sgt nak masuk~" huhu

FUH.Akhirnye for the first time dpt jugak aku jejakkan kaki dlm pejabat DEAN.

so?what to do?
just tell him the truth la~~kitorg pun ckp,nak hntar invitation card ke Annual Grand Dinner tpi nama tak bertulis lagi~huhu..(speaking ye,harap mklum)
pstu die pn amik,tgok invitation card tu...huhu
Luckily PA dia pn ade kat situ,peramah gak PA dia..so takde rr nak tkut sgt masuk ofis tu
pastu PA dia tnye, "Hari ape?"  "Hari ahad malam."  "Owh Dato', you have to go to Kuantan on that day"
so DEAN takdapat datang la ke dinner kitorg..haha..sbnrnye klu dia tak dtg takde rr nak formal sgt mjlis!
then DEAN tu cam nak borak ngn kitorg...tnye
"Did you hear any comments about the students being fined lately?"

upppsss.Saman?

berita trkini.satu Ops Kemas telah dijalankan di UIA PJ baru2 ni.Ramai student yg trpaksa mngeluarkn wang kertas merah dan biru semata2 utk mmbayar saman2 tak pakai matrik kad, tak tuck in, tak pakai kasut gi klas, tak daftar barangn letrik,etc.etc.etc...yup.bnyak gile peraturan.

then i replied to the Dato' bermbut putih tu
"I havent heard any comment about it.Nothing from my friends"

"Owh,so you are befriended with good people."  "dont you hear any students complaining about their losing of laptops,handphone etc.? (sori rr bahasa DEAN tu lagi power English daa)

aku plak asyik geleng jep.haha..seriusly,aku tak dengar pn pape komen dri student pasal kene saman.
padahal blmbak2 aku dgr org dok mngutuk!and i know smpai ada grup dlm Facebook yg dok kutuk saman,peraturan,pak guard and yg sewaktu dgnnya.tpi bile becakap dgn Dean,aku jadik lupe sume bnda tu.UIA tetiba nmpak cntik belaka.

yup.nerbes kot.sume hilang.pastu DEAN tnya,kitorg amik kos ape?
falaha nk amik pure math."I love Math" die bgtau kat Dean.Aku plak ckp nak amik pure physics.

"Owh,well then, we'll meet at Kuantan Campus."

"OK,thank you Dato'" pnggil dia Dato' tau!

Then, guess what???

The DEAN opened the door for us!!!Wow...so gentleman! ^^
terasa sungguh dihormati....haha.padahal besala tu~

oh well.yes it was a precious experience for me.
cehh.tu baru jmpe Dean. nak gmpak.
tringat dulu.
"Cuba bayangkan klu Rasulullah ada kat depan kta.Apa yg akan kita ckp kat dia?"
hmmm.Oh my God.
Rasa malu yg AMAT.Tak tau nak letak muka kat mana.
Rasa BERSALAH gile2,mcm2 rasa.
Rasa suka yg AMAT,sbb dpt tgok sndri Kekasih Allah kat depan mata.
Oh my God. Oh my God.Ya Allah.Ya Allah,ampunkan dosa2ku.Sesungguhnya aku hamba-Mu yg lemah.

"~Oh Tuhanku...berilah hidayah
Pada hamba-Mu yang lemah ini...
Rahmatilah kami...ampunilah kami
Hamba yang lemah,di dunia ini...~"
(lirik lagu "Sinar Hidayah" yg kitorg bawak untuk Battle of Nasyeedians,+ lagu Amrullah Baitul Maqdis by Mu'adz.Mmg best bawak lagu semangat tuh!!AMRULLAH!!)

and then that night.When Efarasach was announced to be the 2nd runner up for Battle Of Nasyeedians Sisters, all of us went up the stage utk amik hadiah.dpt plak setiap sorg.
and guess who yg bg hadiah tu??Shah InTEAM i tell you!!!hahaha..suke3x!

owh hell yeah what a day.such a sweet memory.

but ape yg aku btul suka dgn Efarasach ni
idea nak masuk Battle of Nasyeedians ni bleh la nak kata aku yg cdgkan
sebab aku btol2 tringin nak men percussion!!wargghhh..
and yg aku btol2 tak sngka
All of FRC team members SGT2 supportive!!smpaikan diorg lagi smngat nak buat latihan!wow
seriously...thanks guys,SURELY i will remember this!!!^^
and i HAPPILY ENJOY 'membelasah' percussion yg ada...WAHAHAHAHAHA...
hell yeah i tell you.tak caye tnya kak nazihah,et ke..rahmah ke..chepah ke...tnye la sape2 yg tgok aku 'BLASAH' percussion tu cukop2 malam tu!YEAH!!!mmg sume org tgok aku malam tuh...haha...takdela...diorg laen pn best gak!!!

and tgn aku still gatal nak ketuk percusion tu time battle of nasyeedian brothers.satu group je yg bwk percusion drpd 5 group yg ada.(WHAT?!really dissapointed.aku dtg utk blajar men percusion dgn mmrhatikan cara diorg ketuk percusion)
ramai bawak BEATBOX.and wow,it sounded hell good.SO good i tell you.new generation of nasyeeed i guess.well...nak kene blaja beatbox la plak pas ni.hurm

dalam kelas math,tgn aku dok ketuk2 meja.mulut mnyanyi2.otak melayang tringat pentas.dan percusion yg mnjadi idaman.tmpat belasah.

Surat Dekan

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.
******************************************


One night tgh aku study,(mmg kuasa Tuhan rr aku dpt study mlm tu)
tak sedar pn enset tgh berkelip2...(aku 'silent mode' kan enset tu)
tgok2 ade 4 miscol and 1 mesej dr bpk aku..
whoaa...tak penah2 aku dpt 4 miscol r bapak aku!haha
pastu aku call la bapak aku..
bapak aku tnya,apsal tak angkat, dah 4 kali call??
aku pon jwb la..,tgh buat homework...tutor math aku bnyak gile tak buat!
upe2nye bapak aku nak tnya..bile balik??
aku jawab rr..abes exam nnti la,ujung bulan 2...huhuuu
mak bapak aku suruh balik sblm exam tu...hurmmm
ok...pastu mak aku cakap,aku ade dpt surat smpai kat umah
surat ape?mak aku jawab,surat dekan...
huh?mule2 pelik la jgk dgr..owh,dekan tu 'dean'...haha
ooo..baru aku ingat,surat deanlist la kot..
hurrm...
bile dah letak je phone,aku pikir blik
mak bapak aku kat umah sronok kot tgok sijil dekan tuh
sedangkan diorg tak tau pn aku kat uia ni buat ape!!
diorg tak tau pn aku ni busy studi ke busy ngn mnde lain??
huhu..
diorg ingat la aku kat uia ni rajin study konon...
sampai sijil dekan smpai ke umah
sedangkan...huuuaaaaa....T_T(down gile)
sem ni mmg aku mngaku
aku langsung tak studi!!!warghhh!!!
each of my free time,i spend to something else
smpai masa utk diri sndri pn takde!
suddenly deep in my heart,'somene' shouts:
"please!sape yg akn pduli pasal ko klu bukan ko sndri??"


serius,aku rase bersalah ngn mak bapak aku
diorg tak tau pn aku jadik vice president FRC
vice president yg tak guna
dan aku tak study LNGSUNG
tuto chem?tiru kawan
tuto math?tertangguh-tangguh!
midsem math aku??27 per 50!!
kuiz chem?9 per..brape tah!
haritu jawab mcm cikai siottt!!!mmg aku tak peduli langsung pasal kuiz tu!
tak pduli lngsung ak dpt mrkah brape pn!kosong pn aku tak kesah!!
wargghhh...
naseb baik fizik lab n chem lab buat same2
klu tak aku rase tangguh jugak la kot!!!
wargghhhh


takpe2....
to my parents,
nnti dah masuk Kuantan nnti
i wanna be humble,low profile
biar smpai sume org tak sedar pn kewujudan aku kat situ
hah!aku nak pulun fizik habis2an!!
and how could i contribute to the society?
let me do it my own special way...
*betapa teruk nye diriku ini..huhu*

Setiap hari aku nampak...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

For your information, this is the board in front of my study table. (klik atas gambar untuk besarkan)

Try figure out how my life is.

Or else, just let the picture do the talking.

Sakit jiwa @ tekanan perasaan

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

Pernah tak anda merasa tension?Atau stress?
Ya,setiap manusia pernah rasa mcm tu.Tipula klu tak pernah.
Tapi pernah tak rase tensen sgt buat keje,smpai rase macam nak masuk spital?
Bukan keje smpai sakit,tpi you wish to be in a hospital.
Sebab ape?Sebab bila kt hospital, org tau kita sakit dan org takkan kacau kita utk suruh kita buat keje.
Paham tak ape mksud aku?Yup, korg paham.

Rasa mcm everyone is looking for us utk suruh kita buat keje
dan kita rasa yg kita perlukan rehat!
to go away,really away from all of this!!!
just for a moment pun jadi la!

Macam aku nak lepaskan tnggungjawab plak kan.


lepaskan tanggungjawab.Just for a moment.Please.
Then after i've been refreshed,reboot, refurnished,reformatted
then I would feel like new,and I would be ready to hold the responsibilities more efficiently!


kereta perlukan servis,komputer perlukan format
adakah manusia juga begitu?macam objek?

atau perasaan aku yang salah?
Kenapa aku sentiasa salah???
So kita berharap supaya kita jatuh sakit, supaya org tu bila dia dapat tau kita dah jatuh sakit,
dia takkan carik kita lagi utk suruh buat keje.
Hmm...mmg tak patut.Mintak supaya sakit? 
Sesungguhnya kesihatan itu adalah satu nikmat!!!

But i've been feeling like this for a while now.
And i've been asking forgiveness from God because of this stupidity.
Why?Why i've been feeling like this?
Do I really need a vacation?Bukan ke manusia lagi hebat dari robot?
Boleh buat keje blmbak2 biarpn dalam tekanan?
I'm confused,patutke aku rasa tertekan?
but i do feel tensed and packed
so kenapa aku rase tension ni?
and kenapa aku mcm happy bile tgok aku dapat lebam or luka
(brutal sgt gi main archery,flying fox,abseiling n horse riding on the same day)
seronok ke mnyakiti diri sendiri?

Tak,tak. Mana ade seronok mnyakiti diri sendiri.Ko gile ke ape?

Yup, aku rasa aku hampir gila.And I really need to discuss with a psychiatrist,
should i be put inside a psychiatric ward or not!

Oh no, oh no. You shouldn't be crazy. You are just tensed.

Yeah, tensed till I feel like crazy.

But you're not yet crazy.There are also others who are more stressed than you!

Hell,yeah.

Gila sampai aku rasa dalam otak aku ni,info2 yg masuk semua nya bersepah2,tak tersusun.
Neuron2 otak aku sumenye tengah bercelaru,caca merba.
Berenang2 dalam fluid otak aku,tapi tak tau nak connect saraf mane satu.

Huh.

Singkatan/abbreviations

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum.
*************************************************************
Here are some text abbreviation being used by a alot of people i just like to share with all of you....

brb = be right back
gtg = got to go
lol/lulz = laughing out loud
ty = thank you
yw =  youre welcome
np = no problem
omg = oh my god
wth= what the hell
btw =  by the way
fyi = for your information
diy = do it yourself
nvm =  never mind
pto = please turn over (atas kertas ke ape)
wysiwyg = what you see is what you get (mksudnya ape yg die bg/tunjuk pada kita tu la itu yg kita dapat)
xoxo = hugs and kisses
jk = just kidding
k = okay
zup = what's up?
mk/mkay = "Mmmm...okay."
myob = mind your own business
asap = as soon as possible
a.k.a = also known as
asl =  age, sex (gender), location (biase org nak chatting dia akan tros tnya guna ni "asl?"
kewl = cool
r.i.p =  rest in peace (ni diorg tulis kat batu nisan utk org dah mati)
ppl = people
plz = please
ne =  any
ne1 =  anyone
lolo = lots of love

Aku terjebak dalam penggunaan abbreviations ni dgn aktifnye sejak cuti bulan 10 haritu...aku kat umah ade intenet,pastu ade sumting yg aku buat kat tenet ni (hehe)....pastu baru la aku terjebak ngn pnggunaan abbreviations niey...~nak lagi?banyak!!ade linknye..click kat sini...lol ^^

Blog

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

Rasa mcm nak delete blog ni. Hmmmm.
Well.Ade org suka and ade org tak suka.
Tapi..hmm.
Macam it's better if i wrote stuff like this in my beloved diary.
(WHAT?!I have a diary??You're kidding,right?)
Huh.Suddenly I feel like writing in English.
Why?Because my diary is in English.
And I talk to myself in English.
Well, lately i've been doing that.
It's more comfortable for me. I do less talking in Malay I guess.

So..wanna hear me talking, talk to me in English.
Really?
Well..I suggest you talk in Malay. Why?
Because I can continue to keep quiet and live in my own world..while you're talking in Malay!

Hahaha..don't worry.Just kidding. I still have two ears to hear what you say, no matter English or Malay ^^