Sakit jiwa @ tekanan perasaan

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

Pernah tak anda merasa tension?Atau stress?
Ya,setiap manusia pernah rasa mcm tu.Tipula klu tak pernah.
Tapi pernah tak rase tensen sgt buat keje,smpai rase macam nak masuk spital?
Bukan keje smpai sakit,tpi you wish to be in a hospital.
Sebab ape?Sebab bila kt hospital, org tau kita sakit dan org takkan kacau kita utk suruh kita buat keje.
Paham tak ape mksud aku?Yup, korg paham.

Rasa mcm everyone is looking for us utk suruh kita buat keje
dan kita rasa yg kita perlukan rehat!
to go away,really away from all of this!!!
just for a moment pun jadi la!

Macam aku nak lepaskan tnggungjawab plak kan.


lepaskan tanggungjawab.Just for a moment.Please.
Then after i've been refreshed,reboot, refurnished,reformatted
then I would feel like new,and I would be ready to hold the responsibilities more efficiently!


kereta perlukan servis,komputer perlukan format
adakah manusia juga begitu?macam objek?

atau perasaan aku yang salah?
Kenapa aku sentiasa salah???
So kita berharap supaya kita jatuh sakit, supaya org tu bila dia dapat tau kita dah jatuh sakit,
dia takkan carik kita lagi utk suruh buat keje.
Hmm...mmg tak patut.Mintak supaya sakit? 
Sesungguhnya kesihatan itu adalah satu nikmat!!!

But i've been feeling like this for a while now.
And i've been asking forgiveness from God because of this stupidity.
Why?Why i've been feeling like this?
Do I really need a vacation?Bukan ke manusia lagi hebat dari robot?
Boleh buat keje blmbak2 biarpn dalam tekanan?
I'm confused,patutke aku rasa tertekan?
but i do feel tensed and packed
so kenapa aku rase tension ni?
and kenapa aku mcm happy bile tgok aku dapat lebam or luka
(brutal sgt gi main archery,flying fox,abseiling n horse riding on the same day)
seronok ke mnyakiti diri sendiri?

Tak,tak. Mana ade seronok mnyakiti diri sendiri.Ko gile ke ape?

Yup, aku rasa aku hampir gila.And I really need to discuss with a psychiatrist,
should i be put inside a psychiatric ward or not!

Oh no, oh no. You shouldn't be crazy. You are just tensed.

Yeah, tensed till I feel like crazy.

But you're not yet crazy.There are also others who are more stressed than you!

Hell,yeah.

Gila sampai aku rasa dalam otak aku ni,info2 yg masuk semua nya bersepah2,tak tersusun.
Neuron2 otak aku sumenye tengah bercelaru,caca merba.
Berenang2 dalam fluid otak aku,tapi tak tau nak connect saraf mane satu.

Huh.